Bah humbug

Today started out slow. And could never get going. Did the trational run to Cub for french bread for a tradition...... and starbucks for the annual x-mas eve mocha. Showed up at the fathers around 10:30 am... also had doughnuts in tow. The old man was dragging too. Neither of us could get happy about the day. Just flelt off. People started to show. Still could not get going. Just kept saying I have no ambission. Angie asked if I was going to be this way thru the whole pregancy. I just wanted to pop her in the nose. No ... but when the past three nights you have been waken many times by a spouse or child. Can not have caffineen in large doses. And the holiday just seams like another day. ..... It sortive takes it out of you. It lasted longer than most years. Wywy never took a nap... looked like hell because of it. But he did get a few good toys, thank you all. Now I remb. what the foundue that Erica made is missing. Dill!!! Oh well I get to make some more tmrw. Just trying to feel happy and with as lousy as the past few days have been.... just can't do it. Sadly makes me sad... for this was my favorite holiday. Just seeing so many people being strapped.... and as we all struggle in some way or another. Happy happy....