Lots of changes

Surgery is coming soon. Now need help from others. Let us see if any one is willing to help.

Jason and Jen got a house. Great home. I do want the floors.

Got hosed on my x-mas due to storms and a hubby. Still trying to simmer down from that one.

Now I am off of work til next year. Let is hope I get a day off prior to my slice and dice.

Nice.

So spent the whole waking day at the SIL's house cooking dinner. Joy! Came home and went strait to bed. Got woken up by Keith and Wy when they got home for we drove sep. Also found out recently that I will be having surgery. Hope this solves my issues.

Alive?

Well today was the first day I could joke around and felt a bit better. Still not good enough to go out with the children but what can you do. I rested as Keith made the rounds with the children. Still getting massive headaches and pain in chest. Hope it goes away soon.

Hope all who can get the H1N1 Vaccine will. I lost a week of my live I will never get back. And my christmas time off. UGH... The one thing that I look forward to.

Also started thinking. One of the worst times of the year is coming up. My date of birth. I know a b-day is something that is usually celebrated. No it is not due to my age. So what yeah we all get older. It is due to the fact every birthday I have ever had is sad in many ways. From it being snow storms that have prevented people from coming, deer hunting, or parental fighting. Every year some major event saddens the day. I mean every year. Even with low expectations. I know I am an adult and I should not care. But I do sadly. Even on the milestone years for b-days I have missed out majorly. Like 21st. Only one old enough to drink. It was a few friends playing cards at my apartment. *sigh* I know self-pitty.

I just hope my children are able to avoid the curse.

Also trying to figure out if I even want to throw the holiday party. I am just getting so burned out. Wondering why I even try on things like that.

Oh well I should rest so I can attempt to re-enter the wonderful world of work on monday.

Swine flu boo!

So day care has been closed since wed. Wyatt and I started our fevers on Thursday. Mine broke last night. And Wy's may of broke today. If this is the case back to daycare on monday...... if they are open. This whole illness has been odd. The fact I got a fever even is odd. I am the one who always gets an illness but never the fever. Oh well.

Had to cancel the kid pics. And now broke due to buying all sicky foods.

Nothing else has been going on as of late.

Progress

In the last few weeks I finished two quilts. The new owner loves them. So funny to hear a 5 mo old is attached to them already.

The ENT now thinks that my tonsils are the cause of all my problems. I am on a heavy duty anti-biotic for 21 days. They may need to be removed soon.

Thinking of selling quilts on Etsy.

ECFC classes are going great. Emma had her first real gut busting fit of laughter.

Been so busy grading/working.... must make it to december when I am taking some time off.

Feeling Numb..

So went to the ENT again. Now I am on pain killer that is not really working. I go back on wed.

Started back to work. First day back, layoffs! Otherwise first week back was ok. Excluding the OT drama.

Had a great time at Mike and Sarah's wedding. Met some new people. I hope that they do become friends.

Have made a new friend with an old tie. It is great for her child is about the same age.

Starting an ECFC class with Emma soon.

The house is 3/4th red. Starting to look better.

Goals

Ok to they are tasks/items I want to accomplish.

Pay off Credit card
Move to Out of Blaine and avoid the communities of Anoka and Coon Rapids
Purchase my mini-van or Suv
Attempt a math course
Get the children potty trained
Get an adult trike
bike to a state park with the trike
Remain gainfully employed
have another child

Worst annv. ever...

Yep. That sums it up. Was sick. Had too many things to do. Went out to dinner. Came home. That was all. No flowers or gift from the hub. Not like I expect the moon. But even a rose. Hell got more from the step-mom (a card). I have a feeling the shit is going to hit the fan soon.

Also been having to wake up with the kids on my off nights. I know I am a parent but I need sleep too.

That is about all.

Come on now!

So this weekend we had the option of going to the in-laws cabin. Left it up to Keith. He said we should stay home. Ok. Then at the last min. he decides we should go up. FINE! So we did. The s.o.b had the bright idea that he should tell me what way to take. Wrong thing to do for he had some other pre-conceived ideas that I was going to ditch him for Grand Rapids at some time, so there for we did not need to go thru it. Lots of road construction, single lane roads with grandpas, and Keith..... I became angry very fast. I dropped the Grand Rapids thing. Keith asked if I was mad, and if I was going to be mad about it all weekend. Told him to drop it and all will be fine. Then very close to hwy. 2 he decided to drive the 11 miles to Grand Rapids. A bit self-serving for he wanted food and beer... hummm....

So the cabin was a bit boring. The weather sucked. Keith ditched me and the kids to go fishing. Ended up taking care of the kids with rare assistance from others. Tried to take a bath. That got interrupted by a family friend needing something from the bathroom, NOW! Then on my night off from kid duty. I ended up taking care of Emma. Waking up with the shits. Then being awoken by a toddler at 8. Joy! Keith went fishing and I dealt with children. Also did laundry. Dan could tell I was a bit neglected and offered to take care of the kids (both sleeping at the time) so I could go fishing. Had no desire, nor license.

Got on the road. Made it to Elk River before melt downs from both children. Stopped at Sonic. That was the best thing of all weekend. Got home at 9.

This morning all went to hell. I guess during the wee hours of the morning the cops busted someone infront of our home. The thew a baggie out the window. They did not notice this at first. Then at 4:30 am they busted people searching our yard. Then the cops came back at 5 min to 6am and knocked on our door to tell us about the situation. They were searching our yard for the meth. Supposedly the cops were to call and let us know the status of what was going on... they never did. Keith got told not to let Wy put anything found outside in his mouth. DUH! Just makes me want to move more!

Then got bad news about the wedding annivery child care arrangments. I give up.

Keith is back to 40's but can not work fridays again. So there for it means single parent time again. The kids will see Keith for an hour at best prior to bed time.

Liz who I am not on good terms with called wanting advise from my hubby. "you sound frazzled" Hummmmm you wonder with what went on today and then not showing up when you said you would, then not calling about it for weeks... you wonder?

Rob's car took a shit.

Angie's tooth cracked and had to get a crown.

Emma was super fussy for most of the night.

Wyatt got a bad scrape on his knee. An overflow diaper. And then played the I do not want to go to bed routine.

The only good thing of the day was him going poop on the potty. Sorry if TMI but when potty training....

Now must run to bed. She just went down and the next three days are going to be long.

Updates

The porch passed inspection. Now to put in the items that were not on our plans. Like a fan.

Got the stroller. Took the kids for a walk. It pushed like a dream. Wyatt loved it. He was talking to Emma about the neighborhood, and giggling the whole time. As we started the walk we found our gate open, with two water bottles next to it. So our dog is gone again. A lock will be purchased when we make it to a store. No sign of the dog yet.

Keith's work cut back down to 32. No sign of more work. People are being asked to take days off. We already cut back on things.... now time to do it more. Rammen noodles for all.

Getting better....

The last few weeks have been full of stress. Searching for a double stroller, the porch, and playing single parent. Needless to say yesterday was when things started getting better.

Started with shopping Old Navy online, had 30% off coupon. Got some clothing that I hopes work out. And got free shipping. Then called Leah and arranged to go to the store with her. I had some items to return from the last time. Made a stop at Starbucks, she paid. The store manager treated us great, offered us the 30% as well if we did not have one.

Got the mail and got free Enfamil bottles.

Did have the evil FIL show up.... but he kept out of my way.

Went to BRU and looked at strollers. Made progress. Bought diapers and food and ended up getting an extra $10 in gift cards for free!

Made a determination and made a purchase of the stroller. Not a jogging one like I wanted but it should be good. Should be here some time next week. So out of stroller hell! Just in stroller purgatory til it arrives.

Last night Emma slept thru the night. And tonight will be a trip to Nova. Depending on if the porch inspection results depends on if it will just be wine or food tonight.

Wed. sucked, thursday better...

So wed night got no sleep in to thursday. Emma did not go to bed til 11. Wyatt woke up at 12, 1:30, and 2:30 for he "had a butt". Then Emma woke up at 3:30. Taking a long while to go back down. Followed by Keiths alarm at 4:20, and again at 4:35. Then prior to leaving a Wyatt came in at 6 to give me a hug prior to leaving for the day. Totally woke me up, but he did share/leave teddy for me to sunggle. If you know him that is a big deal. He wanted me to go with, but told him I had to stay home and sleep for he kept up mommy all night. Gave me a hug, said ok, and went with daddy. Emma woke up again at 7:30 and did not go back to bed.

Gave up. Ended up getting a visit from the starbucks fairy. Then Keith's work ended up sending me a very nice flower arrangement in a cute vase. (they would of sent it last week but they were closed) Then the mil visited. Emma kept her eyes shut the whole time. Leah came over. Hit Kohls, got nothing. Picked up the fussy one. Who freaked out that I did not have the Emma with. Had to inform him that she was in the car with a special visitor. Auntie! He was ok with that.

Called Liz many times who was to have been coming over last night. Got her hubby. He was aware of no plans. Not the first time this has happend. Told him about what she had planed and stated that "it figures" and "she never tells me anything". Spoke to him and had a nice conversation and told him if she dsnt bring it up to just say nothing. Never got a call and she never showed. That just pisses me off. You want my time great, but to make plans and not to follow thru with them angers me.

At that point ended up going to Von Hansens and got some steak for the reaming sil and the bil showed up too. Ate steak, went to bed.

Emma and Wyatt were great last night. Now today to see if I get to meet up with Randi prior to her leaving town. I do not think I can go bar hopping with others for her on saturday.

Two good nights...can we hope for more?

Emma was good again last night. Keith fed her again this morning but she decided not to go back to sleep after he left. Diaper. But after another bottle, and a fresh diaper all was well. But a head ache has plaged me most of the morning. It goes away then comes back and feels like a migraine. Caffeine and drugs are not helping.

Collage has started populating my mind again. Sigh... no $, and no time. Plus the programs that I would do would be quite costly. Nursing then a master in physical therapy. Issue is it would take 7 years to finish. Ugh... I will give up as normal. And not bring it up to people. Shit the best grade I got in tech. school was a c-.

It went better than thought..

Ok so my first night on Emma duty did not go well on sunday. She woke up more than ever. So nothing was done on monday during the day excluding ordering stamps. I know such excitement. Then went thru the back and forth of Keith then finaly deciding to work 5 days this week. Not too thrilled on that, but at least he still has a job.

So after him pulling crap on me of not saying when he was coming home. And knowing that I wanted him home to help with the Wy pickup. Nothing. I go pick up Wy. Went better than I thought. He was quite protective of sister. Did not want anyone touching her. He ran to the car. Thank god not in to the road.

On our way home Keith then chooses to tell me what the hell is going on. He missed pick up time with Wy. It made me a bit mad. But made it home before us. Then a great dinner debate for Emma was having fussy time prior to the pick up. Wy was on a "mine" tangent. Being a show off for attention when we were already giving it to him. Ended up going to Target with Wy for he wanted to Go! and GO NOW.

So we got to Target and he was an angel for me. Got a call when at the stoplight that the grandparents were coming over. So ended up getting home. Then Wy started acting like a little shit. Got him in the house and the grandparents showed up. After a juce box sanfu got him to bed.

Emma woke up twice lastnight, normal. Wy woke up sortive too. Keith fed the Emma this morning so I could get some sleep. Now only if it could keep up with a few less wakings on the childrens part.

Hope it goes well.....

Saying that for many reasons... Wyatt is back. He bucked nap time due to a 15 min. nap in the car. So after giving up on that .... we fed sister. He is just fascinated by her at this point. I hope it lasts. Keith and Wy went out side to play, and washed the puppy. Thank god he reaked. Wy thought it was so bad he even found the fabreze and sprayed him down. Thank god it is pet frendly. Now to figure out if is works directly on the animal, lol. Ended up sending Keith and Wy to Culvers. I am just dreading tonight. Emma has not stayed up as much as I would of liked at this point. Also still waiting on that poopy diaper too.... anywho... Oh and tmrw. for Wy is going back to daycare. I am stuck paying something one way or another. So he can keep a routine he his going. Not looking fwd. to dealing with Wy the runner in the road and the infant. I know just have to cope with it. Just happy daycare is on a quiet road. If things do not go well he is getting a backpack with a leash on it. I hate them but with trying to deal with the both of them and a head strong toddler... sigh. Also wondering why the hell I do not want to eat. Just have no apptite. It sucks. For I am usualy a foody. Still getting callories in. Just in bad ways like Starbucks.

I want to do nothing....

I think having a new baby has gotten to me. I just want to do nothing today. And I need to get things done for this is the last full day prior to Wy coming home. Do not get me wrong I look fwd. to him coming home but it will be harder to get things done. So far took a nap and Leah and Rob came over for a bit. Need to run to Menards. Prior to that I think some coffee is in order.

Attempted to go get a facial to be good to my self but that did not happen. Bummer for I have a free one coming to me.

BRU and doctors too!

Yesterday got to BRU with the MIL and they were out of 1/2 the crap I needed again. I got so mad I forgot the other 1/2 of the crap I needed. So later Keith and I ran to another BRU location and picked up the remaining items. Along with dinner from the Byerly's deli.

Today woke up and let Keith sleep in. Took care of Miss Emma and got the family on our way to the east metro. Visited the step-mom at work and got Emma's birth certificate taken care of. Then to the doctors. Needless to say the search for the ped. is still in progress. So today we saw a NP. She was odd.... Emma is back up to 2 oz shy of her birth weight. She dropped down to 9lb as of Monday so this is great! All is well in baby health land as of right now. Then on to Linner (lunch/dinner) at one of our favorite resturants. Made our way to Target then home. Not too bad of a day so far.

waiting again...

So the clinic called and they got Emma in this week, yea! But still waiting on paperwork so she can be insured.

Also trying to figure out what to do about strollers. For Emma is here and I only have singles. Maybe I get Wyatt a backpack leash?

I am suppose to run to BRU today with the MIL. But still waiting to here from her.

Hurry up and wait more..

So changed my out of office message at work. Not returning til 9/14. Talked to my boss. Set up my 6 week check up. Called to make an appointment for Emma. Waiting for a call back. I guess there was a baby boom this last week. They are trying to figure out how to get her in. Filled out my insurance paper work. Now they want a copy of the birth certificate. SO I am now awaiting that. If it is not here within the week I am sending in the paper work regardless. Also set up my short-term.

Never got to babies r' us yesterday. A bit mad on that one. The fil showed up when he should not of. Then tried to be all buddy buddy with the mil and her spouse. They left. Spent time with Wy. Then they came back and took him. Now must make calls to see where he is going today. The mil might have him tonight. Then on tueday night he has some good plans... that is all I will say for now. Jessie came over and thank god she did with some formula.

Had the home health visit today. Emma lost another 3 oz. but that is ok and within expected range. We both checked out well. Also ended up with another can of formula. Score!

Hurry up and wait...

So last night I did not take it so easy. Keith was so exhausted and in lots of pain from the bed in the hospital. So for a few of he wake ups... he did not even notice for that is how hard he crashed. I took care of Emma. She is so easy. This also worked out great for I could take my pain meds on time. So in a way, win win.

Woke up this morning later and Keith was doing alot better. He ran and got me Starbucks and Key's. In fact I must go back there soon for my $2.00 drink. Called the pager # for the home health nurse and still have not herd back. Leah claims she is coming over today, she has not shown. Dan and Sandi are supose to show up, they have not. I am to run to Babies r'us to get some more formula... long story... but must wait for the above. Then Patrick is to show and take Wyatt for a night/day. No rest for the wicked but I must hurry up and wait for all.

But Keith is taking great care of us both today. Though must find my juice cup. Time for more meds.